by Ashley Lucas
Remember last week when I said that I was lacking motivation to do schoolwork? This week, I am feeling the consequences of my procrastination in full force. As the last week of school approaches, I am flailing around trying to make sure that I have everything done. I am currently working on two different papers, a project, a website, and trying to keep up with my theory work. It feels like I haven’t had time to breathe since the week started. I recognize that this is my fault and had I gotten started on it earlier, I wouldn’t have all this to do at one time, but with everything going on, I could not find the motivation then and I am still struggling to find it now. I keep finding myself in this state of wondering “Is this really what is important right now?” Of course, I know that my education is important. I know that how well I do now has great influence on my next step, which is graduate school. I am just struggling to figure out how I find school as important as the rest of the issues in our current world or at the least how I balance the two.
Like many others, I have officially been in quarantine for over a month and I am feeling it. I miss the outside world and human interaction. As an introvert, that is something that I never expected to say. Normally, I am one who has to have time alone to recharge. It is just in my nature to give all of me to whoever I am with or whatever I am doing and therefore I have to charge myself back up afterwards. I can officially say that I have had way too much time to charge and I am fully ready to drain myself with social interaction.
We can do the hard things. This is what I keep running through my head when I start feeling like I just cannot possibly do another thing. I got this idea from a book I read recently by Glennon Doyle titled Untamed. I use this in order to remember that I am strong and capable as a woman to do the hard things in life. For me right now, the hard things are numerous, but I can’t and won’t count myself out. You shouldn’t either.
We can do the hard things.
